Flying Dream

A couple of nights ago i awoke from a dream as high as a kite.  Literally.  In the dream, I'd been flying.  I've flown before in dreams, but this experience was beyond any other.  I felt completely weightless.  It wasn't a physical sensation.  It was a feeling of fearlessness.  It's actually very difficult to put into words, but i want to try. 

It was a feeling of unbelievable exhilaration.  I was free.  F R E E E E E E E E E E E E E.  The freedom i experienced was that of no thought.  No fear.  Ecstasy in the moment.  There was no thing I could not do.  I knew that on every level of my being. 

For a second in my flight, i felt a sense of consciousness that i was flying and that maybe i could fall.  And with that thought, i started to dip down a little.  Immediately i realized that in holding the thought of going down, the fear actually did bring me down.  In both senses of the word.  And i could not tolerate going down at all.  I had to be high and happy again.  I went back to the purity of knowing that flying IS who I/i am.  i refuse to be lower than I/i am.  I want to S O A R !  I am a being of f/light!  And so i did again.

I knew in the dream that i am in control of the joy stick.  Truly.  Through my thoughts, i remain high in the sky or i slip down.  It's completely in my hands.  The freedom and power i felt is indescribable. 

The other knowing that came to me after i woke up was that i believe that what i felt is what my greater consciousness always feels.  Pure (untainted by fear) bliss.  Joy beyond anything I've ever experienced in the physical dimension.  Boundlessness.  Freedom.  Deep satisfaction.  LOVE.  And i also had the knowing that this is what the so-called death experience feels like.  The releasing of ALL fears.  All sense of weightedness, of worries.  Those things drop away immediately and there is only a feeling of sweet ecstasy.  In the moment of my waking, i could feel my fear of death (no doubt the biggest fear i have and probably the lynchpin of all my other fears -- from the big ones down to the trivial) lessen profoundly.  WOW!

This morning i awoke from a dream i cannot recall, but with several pieces of knowing.  I sense that they're related to the former dream.  The knowings are these:  Stop worrying.  Live life to the fullest.  The resources i seek are as freely flowing as the memory i hold of pouring money.

The memory is this:  Many years ago when i was in college studying late one night in a lounge, i felt hungry for a snack.  I went to the only source of food at that time -- a candy vending machine.  I put my coins in for a chocolate bar, and suddenly, coins started pouring out of the change hole.  Pouring.  Rivers of coins.  Waterfalls of gold.  Endless ka-ching! ka-ching! ka-ching!  Just like a slot machine.  The noise was incredible.  The sight was mind-blowing.  I looked around -- there was no one.  I quickly stuffed all the coins in every one of my pockets.  I had won the jackpot and it was all mine.  Whoopeeeeee!!!!

That is my touchstone feeling of financial abundance.  I want that feeling.  I want to feel rich.  I want to feel an endless flow of reSources from Source.  When I'm connected, I believe that i deserve that abundance.  My journey is to inch toward that knowing of my true nature.  And when i do, so it will be.  Everything i want will be mine.  I cannot put my life on hold until the money is here.  I can't worry and live small.  I believe the dream (inner consciousness) is telling me to live AS IF it is true now.  That I am endlessly rich.

Thank you inner consciousness/all-that-is for giving me a glimpse of who i really am and what it's really all about. 

The painting is called The World is Awash in Gold (see also Paintings Gallery 4) and it was one of the first paintings i completed.  Yes, those are gold coins flying down and all around and in no way contained by the held bowl.  This is one of the pictures that represent all that I am (and seek):  joy, freedom, exhilaration, and endless abundance.  I believe it is all of ours for the taking -- when we allow it.

Comments

[colleen]

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[kristen reynolds]

Hi Alina,

I lost that card with your email address. I hope this gets to you.
It was great to see you and to meet Chris!

Kristen

[kristen reynolds]

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